A Dirty Little Secret

I have not been a part of the blogging world for very long but one thing I've noticed is that when I read blogs I tend to wish I was more like that person.  They seem to have it all together and I'm falling apart at the seams!  Then I sat back and wondered - do people who read my blog think I have it all together?  Oh my goodness I hope not!  So, I'm writing this post to set the record straight - those of you who know me don't need to read this (and it will not come as a shock to you) but I'd love it if you did anyway :)  I am not perfect!

After you pick yourself up from the floor - because I know that last statement may have blown you away (please note the sarcasm!) ;) I hope you will realize the truth behind some of my humor.

I do try to include my kids in my crafting times but there are a lot of times when I struggle - I just want to do it myself, I lose my patience - "No, you need to do it this way!", and I yell "Mommy just wants a minute of peace - leave me alone!".

The computer is attractive to me (even if my desk is not!) and calls to me all day long.  I can lose myself in doing "good", checking e-mails, just one minute on facebook, writing and reading blogs, even reading my "devotions" on-line can turn into an all day event for me.  Why is the virtual world so much more appealing than my own?

I've begged God to give me a husband and children.  He has blessed me with both and yet I struggle to find contentment in these blessings.

So I want you, my friends and readers, to know that sometimes my house is a mess.  Sometimes the dishes pile up on my counters and in my sinks (I don't have a dishwasher - but really this is not a good enough excuse).  Sometimes my crafting corner looks like my scrapbooks vomited all over the place!  And even more so now because my craft area was flooded!

Sometimes I craft, watch Hulu, or check facebook instead of doing the dishes or cleaning my home.  Sometimes I yell at my kids because they are interrupting "me" time when most of the day has been "me" time.  As I'm writing this I realize it would be more accurate to say that sometimes I am patient, sometimes I am kind, sometimes I am motivated, sometimes I am the Mama I want to be, sometimes I clean my house and sometimes I am loving.  Those times are when I realize who I am in Jesus and that God is working me for a greater purpose.  However, more often than not I fail.  I am well away that God is doing something in me for I am not who I was yesterday but I am far from who I want to be!  I am weak - He is strong.  I am sinful - He offers righteousness.  I am dirty - He washes me whiter than snow.  I am broken - He is my potter, my healer, my deliverer, my "glue".

So I hope you will keep reading my blog even though you now know that I do not excel in every area of my life.  And when you do read, keep this post in the back of your mind - lest you be tempted to think I'm perfect and wish you were more like me.

As for me, I take comfort in knowing this . . .
"Beloved, we are God's children now, and what we will be has not yet appeared; but we know that when he appears we shall be like him, because we shall see him as he is."  I John 3:2

Looking forward to that day,